ThE MooD oF ToDAy

This is before I get the result, then type 1.

紧张，紧张，紧张，
成绩快出了...
我想我的成绩一定很差，
一定会有不及格的...
可是没有人问我怎样？
曾经的那个他，
会陪在我身边，
陪我等成绩，
可是现在的我，
却是一个人孤身作战，
咳...
你几时才能像回以前那样？？？
我相信你，爱你，你却无动于衷...
我难过，
可是我不想就这么放弃...
刚本来一直想要sms给你，
可是又怕吵醒你，或是怕你觉得烦...
所以宁愿自己担心，
也不想吵你...

我不想现在还处在这种情况...
可是我却什么都不能做...
昨晚我本来是想借由那封信息跟你聊天，
可是我看你只回那两个字，
我就不想吵你了...
你最经在某个网写的，
你抛开所有烦恼，
却觉得寂寞，
是在说你想起以前我陪你的日子吗？
可是你什么表示都没有...

我也觉得，
你的心还不定吧...
回来前，
你说你等我改变，
可是现在你的态度，
我真的不知道还是不是跟回来前一样...

好多事烦哦...
明天有考试，
书都还没读...
成绩要出了，
烦恼中...
还有你我的事情，
也让我好烦恼哦...
你还没回到我身边的一天，
我想我都会这么烦恼吧...

After I got the result...

The result didn't fail,
I force myself to accept and try to satisfy this result.

HUAN said , I passed all then can very relax now.
But I still not satisfy of my result.
I want my result can let me happy 1.
But this result haven't let me feel happy.
My friends ,all knew what am I thinking about.
Why I didn't happy???
WHY?

You used my USERNAME and PASSWORD to sign in to see my result.
After that, U just send a "Congrat" only.
Then I called you n ask you really use my username n password to check my result.
I am happy ,
You do this.
But this would not make me satisfy.

Last semester, I got the result poor than this time,
But I can satisfied.
NOW ,
My result was better than 1st semester.
I am sad.
I am not happy.
I was feeling bother also.
T.T

What can I do?
What things can bring any cheerful things to me?
WHAT?
WHAT?
Who can tell me???

Tomorrow I have a test,
But I haven't prepare yet.
I haven't start to study.

Will I can lucky all everyday?
Will I?
Can I?